have this very complex feeling around.. due to mani mani things which i also dont know myself how to elaborate.. sigh.. seeing some of my frens havin parents support to let them continue their studies where i dun have.. wanted to work myself and earn the cash seems so tough for me.. well..

work is still neutral i say.. though i dun really like the site manager.. who act funny to make pple laugh but had a attitude in work.. shall see..! cox hes a foreigner.

sometimes hate being lie by someone who i think is my good friend... but naturally, i can understand why this lie is said.. and times, i'm wondering does .. take me also as a good friend or somethings.. i hate to be in this sitatuation to be so concern about a fren.. and this had not been happening to me after so many many years.. mayb the feeling is because wad happen ytd i guess.. wierd me.. but i told myself again and again.. its nth.. okok.. nothing.. >.<

please.. i must wake up from my dreams, and face the reality!!!! but i dunno wad is the reality leh..

have been like half a year since my dad din contact me.. and i din contact him.. and wad happend that time when i was at chalet was jus like a show... no feelings at all..

its been so numb cox its been happening for the past 20 years..


hope things will be better.. and i will think better!!!

yupx.. three months since i step into this blog... well.. just some of the things that had past since the last few months..

did went for the grad day... quite alright i guess..

after that was actually the end of our contract... last day was workin night shift, which is on the 30th june... many of our pple was working... and it was fun but super tired.. cox i worked the previous night, went home and catch a few hrs of slp.. and came to work again at afternoon.. till the next morning... but.. after handover, all of us went simpang bedok for breakfast. and some were drinking early morning.. haha..

next few days was at TOCC... no site.. so had a job which is to do PLB audit with boon and hernan... and the second week of july was our chalet!!!! its fun i say.. =)

after the audit, which end around 3rd week of july, actually went to PLB... cox fish wanted to be there.. so together ma... as she dun like equity plaza so din went there also..

aniways.. its been two weeks alreadi since i join PLB.. quite alright but dun really like some pple there.. zZz.. so attitude one..

failed twice of my TP.. damn it.. sigh.. add more oil man!!!!!!!